Friday, May 7, 2010

Ella and Audrey meet

Ella was more than thrilled to finally meet, touch, and talk to baby Audrey. Audrey was not the slightest bit agitated and the excitement of an almost 4-year-old, and we are sure it is because Audrey was used to hearing her big sister talk to her every night. It was a sweet momtent, never to be forgotten by any of us here.

We heard in Bible Study Wednesday about prayer, and in this case God has answered our requests with a "no." We do not understand, and perhaps will never understand until we are all together again in glory. It is Ella who is helping hold us together, she simply accepts the fact that Audrey will be living with Jesus.

Audrey has the characteristics of Trisomy 18 and will not survive once she is no longer on a ventilater. We will spend the next couple of days with Audrey as long as she is comfortable, and allow our families to get to know Audrey as well.

"I have found that when I am in a place that I don't want to be, that's where I grow."


  1. Audrey's diagnosis is not news anyone wanted to hear, but the Great Physician has His reasons and, for that, I am thankful. I'm so greatful and thankful that Ella got to meet her baby sister. What sweet pics! She looks so excited :0) . I am continuing to pray for all of you.

  2. Love you and wish I was there with you all. Sending hugs from Columbus.

  3. beautifully put. I won't meet Audrey and Im sad about this, but I know she needs mommy and daddy right now. I pray that the next days/hours for you and your family are beautiful in every way. I pray that God would just wrap her up and comfort her and allow for her to feel you and Chad and Ella. She is beautiful and she was the miracle that we were praying for. I know she won't be here long but she has affected so many people in so many ways. I don't understand this, and I am angry and trying very hard to not complicate this. You continue to amaze me with your faith in the lord...really, it's like nothing I've seen. I wish I could hold her cause she is so stinkin cute....all those little features. Oh, she just takes my breath away. You know we are here for just about anything you need.

  4. Stopping over from Tiffany's site-love your border-it is mine too! I am and will continue to be on my knees before the throne of our Heavenly Father on behalf of your beautiful family and Audrey's diagnosis. I have lived through quite a few miracles in my family over this last year, I know and truly believe that God is the author of our lives and He sees the bigger picture-as hard or as easy as the situation may be for us He has our best in mind and will love, guide and protect through everything in our lives. I ache for you with a mother's heart today-but I rejoice that God is in control and I will pray for His grace to get you through each day.
    In His Love

  5. Becca,
    Those are precious pictures of your girls. I will be praying for many sweet moments for you and your family in the upcoming days.
    Gretchen Miller

  6. I just have no words for you. I am completly broken hearted. I pray that God will ease your pain and give you strength and comfort.

  7. I am a friend of Tiffany's (Melissa Daniel)who has been praying for you and your family and will continue to do so. Wow - what a testimony for the Lord you all have had as I have kept up to date with your precious Audrey. Just wanted to write a verse for you Psalm 61:2 - From the ends of the earth will I cry unto You when my heart is overwhelmed lead me to the Rock that is higher than I!

  8. Jennifer BurrellMay 7, 2010 at 5:06 PM

    My heart is breaking for you guys right now Becca! I am so thankful that God has allowed Audrey some time here so you and your family can have a chance to know her before she goes to be with Jesus. Thank you for sharing her with us as well--what a sweet and beautiful little girl! I will continue to pray for you guys in the coming days.

  9. Our hearts just ache for you, but you are an amazing testimony of God's sustaining grace during a very difficult time. Savor the precious hours, days - however long Audrey is with you. We will continue to uphold you in prayer.

  10. Dean and ElaineMay 7, 2010 at 9:07 PM

    Chad and Becca, our prayers continue to be with you and your family, as well as our church family here in Kansas. May the Lord wrap His arms around you all through this difficult, yet precious time.
    Dean, Elaine, Haley, and Cameron

  11. My heart is hurting for you too. I check your post frequently through the day for updates on little Miss Audrey and your family. One song comes to my mind, as songs help me get through tough times, Praise You in This Storm by Casting Crowns.

    I was sure by now
    That You would have reached down
    And wiped our tears away
    Stepped in and saved the day
    But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

    As the thunder rolls
    I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
    "I'm with you"
    And as Your mercy falls
    I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
    And takes away

    I'll praise You in this storm
    And I will lift my hands
    For You are who You are
    No matter where I am
    Every tear I've cried
    You hold in Your hand
    You never left my side
    And though my heart is torn
    I will praise You in this storm

  12. I heard about your sweet baby Audrey and wanted to come and say hello.

    I have walked a similar path these past 2+ years. My son was born with a heart defect. I lived in the hospital with him for 25 days, and the day before he was to be released...he unexpectedly died.

    This is a journey that I never wanted to take. A pain that I wish that my heart didn't know. But I have found that God has changed me through this process. For that, I am grateful.

    I want you to know that you are not alone. There are many of us out there. It's a special little community that most people don't know exist.

    I will be praying for Audrey and for your entire family.


  13. Hi, my friend Karen Hamilton shared your blog with me and I just wanted to leave a comment and say I am praying for you! My son was born at 29 weeks, so I can understand the fear of having a preemie. I am sorry to hear of sweet Audrey's diagnosis.

    Know that you are being prayed for in my home and that my heart is going out to you and your family at this time. Enjoy that beautiful daughter of yours!

    Denise :)

  14. How my heart breaks for all of you. Praying for peace, comfort and precious memories to be made in the coming days.
    Dawna Murdoch Standley

  15. Thanks you for your precious testimony!!!
    We will all understand better by & by.......
    and His Everlasting Arms hold us up.Gary & Betty Holtz

  16. Chad, Becca, Pastor and Linda,
    We continue to pray for you all, knowing that God's comfort is your strength. From another of my "trust" songs when we don't understand and can't trace God's hand: "There's a reason, there's a plan, there's a purpose; God has a goal. And Jesus Who loves you more than anyone can is still very much in control." As much as we love you, God's love goes so far beyond. Hard to grasp; wonderful to know.

  17. Dave and I are praying that God will wrap you all in His arms and give you strength and comfort as you travel this journey...He is right there with you. May you sense His presence today.
    Dave and Darlene Murdoch

  18. Becca tearfully I am looking at the pictures of the girls.....We are praying. What a precious little girl.

  19. i worked at camp spearhead with chad and my husband and i have a christian camp we started in georgia for people with special needs. i heard about little audrey and found this blog. i have no words other than that i will be praying for you and your precious little one. tammy griffin

  20. i heard about your blog through heidi caldwell. my husband and i just lost our first son calvin almost 7 months ago. he was diagnosed with trisomy 18 at 20 weeks. he was born still fullterm. it truly was the hardest thing i have ever gone through, but what a great joy i had trusting in the Lord knowing that this was His plan and although i don't understand why he chose calvin it was all for His glory. i have not been able to get your family off my mind and just know that i am praying continually that you will know the comfort in the Lord during this difficult time. what a hope we have in knowing our little ones are with the Lord and will be perfect! Job 1:21 the Lord gives and the Lord takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord.
    love-kim branch

  21. God Bless You Guys, You are showing so much courage as you go through this, if there is any comfort I can bring to you please let me know. This was suggested to me by a friend who has gone through an identical situation, she says it helped more than she could find words for.
    Two local coordinators for the group are Allen Manus (615-895-4253, 615-293-4288)or Tom Uchida (615-662-0706)

    May God meet Audrey at Heavens Gates with open arms and may we all meet her upon our return to our Heavenly Father

  22. Cousin Kim HeimerlMay 11, 2010 at 6:41 AM

    Dearest Chad, Becca and Ella,
    I love you guys so much. Ella, you and Audrey are so cute together in these pictures. What a wonderful big sister you are! Mom has been keeping me updated, and oh how I have been praying for you all. I wish I could have met Audrey. She is so adorable in the pictures. The Lord's blessing is obvious even through this trial as I see your strong faith rising to the occasion. God is giving you the peace I am praying for on your behalf.
    What a day of rejoicing that will be when we all get to heaven!